Most people don't plan to be "single parents" but let's just get down to it. Our Mummy/Daddy unit has separated. Theo's Dad has moved back to his parents and I am currently in the process of moving back to my home town. Our relationship is broken and currently will not be fixed. However that isn't the main thing. No longer am I in a position where I can wallow about lost time with ice cream or go out and get shit faced to drown my sorrows. We have Theo. And his happiness comes first.
That little person comes first in everything. At the end of every single thought and decision we both have to consider a tiny human. But that doesn't mean that it's easy.
The first hurdle you have to cross is trying to get on. The second is agreeing when you'll both see the little bundle you both created. Although in the grand scheme of things we are probably one of the most amicable couples when it comes to Theo...currently. Aside from when I'm moving house we've decided a routine. We have casual chat before handing over our son. We are trying to keep it civil.
But this is only the start of all the hurdles we are going to have face when it comes to our new separate parent life. There will be holidays, new partners, arguments on how to raise him and how to teach him right from wrong. Our lives just got 100 times harder when it comes to trying to mould our tiny human into a lovely, happy little boy. And so far, I think we are doing ok.
Even though when it comes to Theo I see him more often, I still find it hard when his little chubby face is in that car ready to say goodbye. Even if it's just for a weekend. I think about all the things I'm missing. If he starts crawling. If he says his first word. Even just another one of his many laugh that warm my heart and make me feel fuzzy. No matter how irritating and how stressful and sleep depriving my baby is, I miss him even when he's gone.
We have agreed times and dates. So lets see how we get on.
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